Monday, April 25, 2016

Twin talk

Jaques is really good at sequential pictures; I have the funniest ones from the recovery room after Octavius' surgery, I'll try to upload that one later. This one is probably the first sequence I got, back when they were only a few weeks old. My brain isn't working tonight, so you can fill in the captions. 

Wednesday, April 13, 2016


The weather is getting warming, and fun things are happening. 

Friday, March 25, 2016

Good Friday

Catholic problems: #1 There it's no consolation in an empty church!

It's Good Friday, the most devastating day in history, and I cannot go to church for comfort because Jesus is not there.

I was raised Catholic, and throughout my whole life I have always been able to walk into any Catholic church and feel the presence of Jesus. I knew I was not alone. I was sitting with a person, the person I love the most. I could feel him as close as if he were sitting right next to me. Always. Except on Good Friday and Holy Saturday. Then I can only feel his absence.

I've been to a few protestant churches over the years. It saddens me because it's an empty church; there is no one there, waiting for me. I walk into a Catholic church on Good Friday and I think I know a little of what Mary Magdalene felt that morning when she saw the stone rolled away. Where is my Lord?! Please! Where have you taken him?

Today I cannot go to church and feel that absence. Today I'm in the out patient waiting room; while my baby is in OR. He's okay; they say it's a common hernia in preemie and it's a simple procedure. I'm actually not very worried about him. But I'm emotionally compromised just because I'm a mother. And it's Good Friday. I always cry on Good Friday.

I want to end this ramble on a happy note, with hope. I know intellectually that there is hope because the Resurrection has happened. The glory and the joy of Easter is coming. But is a day to accept the devastation of our human condition and the loss of the Savior. Today, I will smile when people tell me how cute the twins are, and I will let my tears flow.